Lord, I am wondering why now that I am closer to leaving this temporary home; I need assistance or medical help. I am told “we want the best for you, we want you to remain as independent as possible”. Lord what does that mean in their eyes? At this stage in my life if independence means using every ounce of strength I have doing their will, witch is maintaining my body and my living space; leaving none for You or myself to just live and serve You the best I can under these circumstances.
Lord, why do you leave me here? My understanding can not figure out what You want me to do? Lord, I do not even have the strength to dress in a manner that reflects Your Majesty or speak of You and all You do for me and will do for others if they ask. Lord, my continence has become muted, less bright and cheerful. Lord, have I been trying to do these things in my own strength, or in my timing not Yours?
Lord, I have pushed so hard that I must not even appear to be one of Your Children anymore. Lord I beg of You, help me to correct these imperfections in my daily life. I want to be a good and godly reflection of the difference You make in my life, even now when things look and feel very bleak. Lord, Help me be a better servant and less involved with what is going on as I decline and prepare to come to You.
Lord, do not let me fail now, out of human weakness. Help me Lord, to feel You at my side holding me up. Keeping me on the path You have laid before me. Lord, help me to accomplish all You have intended for me to do till the day I leave this place. Help me Lord, to be all You intended me to be. Help me Lord, not to falter now, I love You. And I do not want to be less then You intended for me to be. Do not let my strength ebb away until it is time to leave.
I love You Lord